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Re: Re: Re: Re: Any Recoveries? |
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May 28, 08 - 8:40 PM |
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Jeff,
Thank you so much... I told my therapist about this site, but I'm pretty sure she doesn't really believe in anything that can't be cured by talking. I need to see a new person, who is willing to listen to me *and* put me on meds so that I can be alive again.
I will inquire of those drugs you recommended, once I can find someone who knows what DPD is *or* someone willing to entertain the thought of something they never studied in college.
Again, thank you so much. I wish there was a list of drugs which seem to help vs. drugs that don't (or make it worse)... One thing that has detured me from medication, is the fear of meds making my symptoms worse to a catatonic state. But my niece turned 11 and I realized, I've never known her without my DPD. I just want my life back... I want to do all the things I was supposed to do, but didn't after having to base my life around my DPD.
Thanks again - Thank you for sharing your personal story and thank you for the recommendations. I want to feel at least 90% better than I do now. I've forgotten what life was before DPD.
P.S. - I notice it when I'm distracted. It's constant. I help care for my family... I do a lot. I'm distracted. And at the end of the day, I feel like I wasn't even there. I really don't like when people write it off like it's something that can be ignored. DPD truly ended my life, and I want it back. I find solace in my days *somehow* but I will never dellude myself into thinking this is as good as it gets. There was a time I was highly intelligent and there in the moment... I was going place. If I could just distract myself away from DPD, I wouldn't be seeking medications. I understand what you're saying, but I've been doing that for years... I've been just finding enjoyment in life... the thing is, I know that I'm not even part of it. So, that always makes it very difficult... to feel like I faked a day. No one knows I have this. People always laugh that I'm so "spacey" and that I forget immediately what they told me... it isn't funny to me. This is how it has been for over a decade. Distracting myself is not an option. Fixing my brain is my solution and my only hope. Yes, I guess I could live the rest of my life like this - I've learned how to. But I'd much rather be "alive" again and truly live my life. My entire adolensence was lost to DPD... I'm not in my mid-20s and really, really want to be normal again |
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