This autumn I made a commitment to myself. To step into what I really am and as a result a process of precipitation ensued in my life. It lead me here via Nicholas De Vere's text From Transylvania to Tunbridge Wells. I have been able to trace my family name back to the Languedoc region in Southern France in the early 1500's but then there is a break in the story...I feel such a strong kinship but don't know for sure how this can be except to say that there are things I've always been aware of in myself, many times I intuit things and then find the confirmation comes soon after and have had some startling messages given to me by strangers who have cropped up along my path from time to time.
My mother has strong psychic ability which has been passed down to me in the form of a degree of sight that pertains to multi-dimensionality and which has come through the maternal line although I'm not sure my mother shares this particular form. Her family name is Bruce Watson. I do not know so much about my matrilineal line except I've been told the family came down from Scotland into Yorkshire.
My father's mother's name was Geraldine Cazalet and was from the branch that had migrated to India, by the time my father was born of both French and Irish descent his respective families had been in and around Calcutta for three or four generations. Even though my full surname is actually Cazalet-Smith I always dropped the patriachal element naturally favouring Cazalet as my proper name because I felt that my true ancestry comes along the female line. Nobody told me this I just knew..
Incidentally Kali has been my primary Goddess since I was in my mid twenties and before I knew that Calcutta was the English translation for Kalighat.
I feel I've kept quiet about the full scope of the world(s) I can see and denied half of who I am for far too long not realizing there are others who seem to be like me! I am hoping to find a mentor who can help me develop my abilities in order to assist in grounding the incredible changes we and the planet are evolving through at this time.
There is such a powerful resonance in me with all that I've researched about Dragon History so far that I felt I must get over myself ask for an answer one way or another.
I can't quite believe I'm going this far!
You are invited to join us at the THE PENDRAGON INN where we can discuss these matters in more detail.
Greetings once again dear VERITAS!
I would like to take this opportunity to publicly apologise for any strife I may have caused the moderators at the Pendragon Inn during my first brief sojourn there.
I want to declare that, on your advice, I have ceased all prior dealings with the matters in question that caused my initial expulsion from the court when my membership was revoked and have always hoped that I would be accepted back after dwelling upon my error.
I totally accept and respect the wisdom of the courts decision and am pleased to say that it has served me very well and for this you have my gratitude.
Balance has been restored and in view of this I humbly request to have my membership reconsidered.
I feel the call to family too strongly not to make this petition!
Your gracious apology has been accepted and your membership at the Pendragon Inn has been reinstated as per your request.
Please accept my deep gratitude for your intercession on my behalf.
I will log in at the Pendragon on Saturday when I've had a chance to access my home email address and change my password.
I have just tried to retrieve my password from the Inn and cannot do so because my account there is still inactive. Please advise me as to when I may be able to enter once more.
I'm very much looking forward to 'coming home' again.
Hallo again Ama,
Your account to access the Pendragon Inn is now active.
Please ensure you log in within 48 hrs or it will de-activate automatically.
Thank you once again VERITAS 😊
I am still experiencing some difficulty logging in. The email address I originally registered with is no longer functional and so I cannot receive an email from the Inn in order to reset my password. How can I access my account in order to enter my current email address?
Thank you so much for your patience!
Unfortunately, under the circumstances your old account cannot be re-activated.
You will have to register again, using your current email address.
Thank you for letting me know.
Greetings once again Dear VERITAS,
I would formally like to inform you that I have once again registered for membership at the Pendragon Inn and very much look forward to engaging with you all once again.
I would truly appreciate help in tracing the lines of my genealogy, a matter that is never far from my thoughts. My mother's maiden name is Bruce Watson. On more than one occasion my mother has been recognised as being a powerful medium but the times when it was recognised she was advised never to use her powers! I've always wondered why this might be, I have my own thoughts but I don't know for sure. Out of the three daughters she bore, it seems that I, the eldest, seem to be the one who inherited her ability in it's most undiluted form, if somewhat in a slightly different capacity.
Hallo again Amanda,
Thank you for your gracious message and membership request, however the Dragon Sovereignty is not taking on any additional members at present.
Please note that this may change in due course and your application will certainly be reconsidered accordingly at that time.
Hallo dearest VERITAS,
Thank you for keeping me updated on the status of Court membership. Please let me know as soon as membership admittance will be opened up again because I feel it is important to me to be in 'physical' dialogue with my kin. I'm certain you must understand what I mean when I say this because of course we are all deeply connected in the thrum of our blood as it whispers constantly to us 😃
I feel intensely moved when I see you feel I am gracious and I cherish that recognition from you... I give you my gratitude for the sense of an impeccable spirit you communicate and which shines through the way you interact not only with myself but everyone you speak to both here and at the Inn :-D
I want to take this opportunity to tell you that for some reason I can't fully explain, I have always felt a very strong bond with you specifically and will take a moment to honour this.
There have been many times I have listened to the gift of the song you sent me a link to and it touches my heart in a powerful way when I both hear the message in the words and sense the sentiment you extended behind that beautiful gesture. I am extremely sensitive to music and it quite literally feeds me!
It is an ardent hope of mine that one day we may get an opportunity to speak in person, if it would be a benefit in terms of the greater good, I think this would be amazing!
Last night I wrote something that I would like to share with you... perhaps you may enjoy it :-)
"Suspended between the astral landscapes thoughts and heartbeats occupy, spanning beginnings, middles and ends, luminous filaments spin out across an infinitesimal void. Multiplying, individual threads begin to merge creating pathways of light, roads, fields of sight.
Now, immersed in waves and vortices of incandescence, I stand mute in awe, drowned in you, consumed; absorbed in a depth of verdant lambency streaming from the gaze you have focused on me and the fire humming in the unborn songs of our future ancestors.
The latch twists and this moment uncoils from it's spent somnambulism. Rest is no longer mine to embrace!
I feel our DNA explode in sovereign ferocity, tracing filigree ciboriums we set before the pristine flame temples of our primordial delights; Monuments to an eloquence unleashed upon the cusp of dreams and speech"
With a full heart
Many thanks for your most eloquent communique.
Once again I am in a position where mere words cannot express my thanks to you for endowing me with this sublime piece of prose, so deftly crafted with such care and expressing such a depth of insight and wisdom.
Rest assured, in the near future, when we are in a position to offer membership with the Dragon Sovereignty, you most certainly will be first to be contacted.
Hallo again dearest VERITAS,
Thank you for your profound appreciation for my attempt to convey an understanding of the inner landscapes I perceive from time to time. It seems that since I've come into closer contact with the Court once more, via thoughts and aspirations, my subtle/poetic sense has been heightened and it is extremely sweet to receive such a genuine acknowledgement that it has been understood, yet even more than this, that I am not alone and that these terrains are, potentially, also known by others, including yourself.
I am now content to wait, in anticipation, until the doors of the Societas Draconis swing open to admit me once more. I have many questions to ask you and look forward to more in depth explorations of the path, culture, history, shared mind and blood that membership could afford.
In the meantime, I understand that you might have access to my email address and would like you to feel free to contact me there should you wish to do so and if Court protocol deems it to be natural and appropriate. Otherwise I will occasionally leave a message or two here for you :-D