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First. get off the ritalin. Obviously it is not working for you. Second, read my post of May 24th above. We can on this board, together, offer support and opinionated advice, but we cannot diagnose or prescribe meds. Do not be afraid to begin again, to drop all of the shrinks you are seeing and search in earnest for a professional with experience, superior knowledge of psychopharmacology, and experience with patients who have symptoms like yours. This is not easy, I know, but often the best doctors are affiliated with major university medical centers and a little investigation might lead to you to better specialists. Getting an accurate diagnosis, and appropriate treatment tailored strictly for you is your job now. Everything else is secondary. And yes, there are effect meds out there and there is no reason why you can't get better. Read everything you can about depression and/or DPD and make sure your new doctor has done the same. Then keep keeping us informed.
I've had dp for quite a while, and it seemed to come to the forefront(my memory is hazey) from quite a bit of drug use. Unfortunately, I can't remember quite so much before then.
Recovering has become just learning to deal with it, though the underlying nihilism and introspective hell seem to be an up and down and not necessarily a symptom of the disorder now but a symptom of the underlying problems that become rooted in ones mind from the perspective the disorder might give.
coming to terms with the disorder was definitely not an easy thing, though learning what the anxiety i was feeling was caused by helped me quite a bit. The other thing is that being a philosophy major perhaps has aided me in reconciling much of what i feel.