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. A psychiatric nurse diagnosed me with Dp , anxiety and depression. I am 17 years old. I recalled when it all happened. I was either 9 or 10 years old , it was a very hot day and everything was spinning in the room , I felt myself spinning and the walls closing in , and the most horrible thing ever - my way of thought , feeling and perception changing. It felt like I was going crazy at the same time going to die of my heart beating so fast.I felt fatigue , and tired and lost my apatite from it all because it seemed as my head would explode with all these thoughts - I feel unreal , detached from my body , the world didn't feel real and like I nor everything else didn't not exist and yet I knew I existed. I couldn't explain it. It was like I went into this episode and I feel as though I'm going insane. Sometimes I feel as though I will lose all control of myself and become crazy. I try to forget about it by preoccupying my mind and when I could all I could do was try to ease my mind by going to sleep and hope that I wouldn't feel this way , until the other episode. Sometimes I'd be so happy and then it was like a train hit me all of a sudden , and I feel like the world just stopped in slow motion and sometimes like a machine , the dead among the living. Sometimes my episodes would be caused by the lights in the house and I would have to turn it off and this habit was noticed and became a nuisance. Up to today I'm still trying to manage my episodes! It feels so nasty , to be stripped away of all sanity , to feel neutral sometimes , and become depressed by the feeling of not feeling real.