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What you seem to be describing is the kind of "mind-emptiness" that people with DPD can experience. What happened to me, to my thoughts? they wonder. It feels as if the self, or the soul has disappeared, and you wind up going through the motions of life, thinking without feeling or just not feeling anything. People with DPD, strangely, can also feel the opposite, namely an obsession with the self, with nonstop, loud internal dialogues that won't quiet down. This doesn't mean that you necessarily suffer from DPD—just are experiencing a DP symptom, for the time being. And it is something that many people inexplicably feel from time to time. From personal experience, I have found that Oscar Wilde's prescription for ennui— "sleep, drink, or travel"— can sometimes work as the stimulus needed to snap back into a more comfortable pattern of thought. Of these, drinking is probably the least helpful. Just some thoughts...
I’m new to the DP world but I have probably been dealing with this for over 40 years since childhood.
I got into this first by owning my “spacing out”, identifying some ADD like symptoms, getting a EEG scan showing how dysfunctional my brain is, and then read the literature on DP Disorder.
Here are a few things I find helpful:
I see a Therapist who focuses on authentic presence, who gently guides me away from DP state and my covering up of DP.
I got into some spiritual teaching about “being in the now” and that seemed to describe a lot of what I experiencing – when I am in DP I am not in the now. 2 important things I learnt from that:
• Learn to be the objective rather than critical observer
• When I realize I am not present (in DP state) I am for that moment present (not in DP)
I’m now sharing a house with a friend who also has DP Disorder.
• We do a lot of “owning” the behaviour – admitting we are “spaced out”
• Identifying ways we’ve covered up DP
• Identifying triggers for DP
• Playing with a small ball throwing it from one hand to the other for a few minutes
• Bouncing a large ball alternating left and right hands
• Alternate tapping of feet and or hands getting left and right brain to work – it seems to help pull me out
Treating DP like an addiction: I’m involved in 12 step programs and find that framework helpful in looking at DP/