Ferrbear, if you are out there, please post. I know that you have recently gone through a great loss and your dealing with other struggles. The Lord has laid you heavy on my heart. I am praying for you, beloved and noticed you haven't been posting. Please let us know how you are doing and I know you need time to grieve. I am there in spirit with you.
(Ecclesiastes 3:1-8)
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.